6 months to 10 months, where did the time go?!

Last time i was on here brayden just turned 6 months. Now hes  almost 10 months! How time flys :)

* It was a big deal that he was sitting up on his own and feedimg himself puffs. Now at 10 months hes crawling, pulling himself up on everything and eating table food.

* At 6 months i was on the elimination diet because we thought brayden was allergic to something in my milk. At 10 months, were off that diet yet still breastfeeding. What i did do through is just started eating healtier. More salads and fruits, cut out pastas and rice and fatty meats. I drink skim milk only and high protein shakes. Hes doing much better.

* At 6 months i was fighting with that kid i was dating about the pointless shit he does. At 10 months, im still fighting with him about the pointless shit he does. Told myself i was done with his shit, that lasted maybe a week? He doesnt let me go too far. If i ignore him and change my number, he shows up at my house. If i move, he has his friends stalk my friends to find out where i moved to. I really need to rid him from my life ALL TOGETHER. I dont understand what im doing with him anymore.

But onto brayden. Hes 18 pounds now, walking sometimes but mainly crawling his way everywhere. He loves sitting around and licking my legs or my elbows. He loves eating my entire kitchen. He also loves climbing into cabinets and closing the door and giving me a heart attack thinking something happened to him. He loves ruining nice outfits with food, so he wears a bib at all hours of the day. He saids "da-da" when i ask him to say ma-ma.

Speaking of his father, he finally got the guts to TEXT me and ask me how ive been doing. Oh, you only kicked me out on the street when i was pregnant with your child, lied and told me you moved to mexico. Now that your son is 10 months old and doing BETTER THAN HE WOULD HAVE BEEN DOING WITH YOU AROUND, you want to text and ask me if i need any help? BYE.

Im thinking about going to do the 10 month program to be a surgical tech. They make almost as much as nurses do, and being a nursing assistant/student nurse is only gonna help me out for so long. I cant afford to go back into nursing school full time just yet, because i need to work full time and being so far into the program they wont let me go part time. Im doing fine with money, but i want to be doing better than fine with money. I want to rent out a house with a yard where brayden can play, not a apartment in a complex where brayden is playing with cigarette butts ..

Braydens Check up!

Brayden turned 6 months old on Sunday, and we went to his pedi appointment on Tuesday. Little guy is 15 pounds, 10 oz & 28 inches long! He is developmentally at 7 months, and the doctor said hes lookin great! He has some mild eczema, she thinks its due to my breastfeeding. So, its elimination diet for me. Not happy, but ill deal. Also, we went to WIC again and convinced them about re-lactating. So now were back to the breastfeeding package with them too, and they took back all that useless and pointless formula just collecting on my kitchen counter :)

On the subject of that guy, he called me a few days later and said he was sorry. I let him say what he had to say, but i also told him i was done with his games. I wasted 9 years of my life with him, i think its time i smack myself in the face and just walk away.

Brayden can sit up on his own and pick up his own little puffs and feed himself. FINALLY !!

Im sorry, but fuck men.

So, i was with this kid who just happeneddd to be my middleschool/ highschool sweetheart. We have been dating on and off since 7th grade. Broke up senior year. I met EX, dated him. Forgot about HS sweet heart. EX got me pregnant, left me. HS sweet heart came back into the picture. Then dated a girl i was friends with, and she "banned" him from seeing me. They were on and off. On their off's, he'd come here to hang out with me. It made me a mess when i was pregnant bc it was so hard NOT to gain feelings back for him. He left, came back. Left, came back. Finally i told him to leave, because i went into pre term labor at 32 weeks and he didnt give two shits. Left me at the hospital by myself. Labor day, no one besides family knows im in labor. Im already overdue, so everyones asking but i deny it because i dont want the text messages while im already stressed out. HS sweetheart texts me and saids "i have a feeling hes coming today!" Im so shocked bc i havent talked to him in a while. But i ignore it and go on with my life. Fast forward three weeks later. Just happens to be his dad lives RIGHT DOWN THE STREET. So he "stopped by his dads, then figured hed stop by here to meet Brayden" Since then, its been even more downhill. One day he wants a family, the next day he doesnt. Hes been mentally fucking me since November. Fast forward to last Saturday. I had my two friends over,. Sam- bestfriend. Bobby- gay best friend. Mike shows up, whatever. Were all hanging out, then i get a text from mike that he thinks sam is hot. Okay whatever, what guy doesnt want a threesome with two bestfriends. I brush it off. Mike sleeps over, we have a good night. Fast forward to today. He texts me asking me if sams coming over tonight. I tell him she might be, he responds with that he wants a BJ from sam. I cant make this shit up. Here i am, 22 years old and i feel like im 12 again. Grow the fuck up, get out of my fucking life.

Vent the fuck over.

i found the gold!!!!

I found the pumping room at work! My friend shenelle just came back from leave and showed me where she pumps. Um, bank?! They have their own Symphony's and Lactina's, that i wont have to lug my PISA around work anymore. IM SO THRILLED. The symphony is amazing, im getting out an extra 2oz than i was compaired to my PISA. Plus, theres rocking chairs, a tv, books, a radio. Snacks, drinks. Ladies and gents, i found the goldddd!!!! Im so excitedddddd. It pays off working at a hospital that is so pro-breastfeeding, go Yale!!!

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We went to the park !

I LOVEEEEEEEEEEEE HIMMMMMMM <33333

Its life!

Finally people are starting to accept my pumping sched at work. When they see me with my medela, they know lol. My co worker (the one who gave me a hard time before) just goes "are you going to .. 'you know'?" And i was like, yes my friend. Gonna go .. 'you know'. Hes like okay ill cover you. Wow, thats impressive.
Work has been getting hetic, we have been in overflow since what seems like forever. But today is a good day, evenings are so much easier for me. Not so crazy, and i can spend time with brayden in the am! Of course i dont sleep in, my internal clock woke me up at 730 today, brayden slept till 9! We went shopping though, got more delish food for the weight watchers program. 66 dollars worth, but it was some good deals so i felt good about it :) Plus maybe if cat food wasnt so expensive id be 14 dollars richer.
I know a friend who stoped breastfeeding her child because she became a single mom after moving out away from her husband, or soon to be ex husband. She asks me how i still breastfeed and do everything on my own? Its easy. I never HAD to depend on a man since the begining, so to me this is just everyday life. Its honestly (in my eyes) only hard when im trying to do two things at once. Like i wish i could make dinner while hubby fed brayden, but dinner has to wait till brayden is fed. I got a system down now, its not like your average family 5 o clock dinners on the table, but i still eat .. when brayden gets to sleep :)

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Finally, work is getting used to me pumping. People see me with my medela

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